Thursday, June 3, 2010

Thought for today....

I LOVE THIS! Just had to share....
"I see myself attracting only those in harmony with my current intent. And I am getting clearer and clearer in every moment about what it is that I want. It matters not what others are choosing...what is important is that I am pleased with me; and as I see myself, I certainly am."

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Quote of the day & updates...

I don't know about all of you out there, but I know that sometimes powerful quotes help to uplift me and give me some positive direction and focus. So, I figured that when I come across something especially moving, that I would share it. So here goes.....

"My life is unlimited in every respect"

This means so much to me because dealing with IF for the past 2 years has really started to put these huge boundaries up in my life. Friendships, work, happiness - just about everything, has been limited since we have been having trouble conceiving. You know what? I think I'm done with that. Screw you infertility. I'm going to live my life. AND it is going to be awesome. I WILL have fulfilling, meaningful friendships. I WILL pursue my dream and start my own business. I WILL get back to being a healthy person. And I WILL be a mother.

So, speaking of becoming a mother, here is the latest on the baby making front. Mr. B and I are thinking about switching to a new RE. Our current doc has been great getting us through 2 ectopic pregnancies, but we have some concerns. 1) She seemed to rush us through testing and getting on with the first IUI without an actual diagnosis. Now, she's thinking back to things she's seen on prior ultrasounds and whatnot, so the verdict is PCOS all of a sudden. Um, hello...this should have been square ONE. 2)She can be very vague when I question her. It's like pulling teeth to get a clear answer from her. 3) She is closing her Alexandria, VA office which is total bummer for me. I work in Alexandria and she is literally on my way into work in the morning which makes it super convenient for all that 7:30 AM blood work. There are a few other things on the list, but those are major for us. We have an appointment at Shady Grove in Woodbridge next week for a consultation. I am really hoping it works out because this office is close to where we live and would make monitoring a lot less of a headache. The plan is to hopefully have things in line around October for an IVF. Anyone have any feedback on Northern VA Shady Grove? Holla at a sista please.

I'm excited thinking about the future...I'm working on managing my PCOS with diet and exercise, taking a mind/body fertility workshop, and still going to therapy and acupuncture. I'm just going to be persistent with everything and HOPE for the best. My life is unlimited...remember?

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Hot diggity damn

God has a funny way of showing us things, doesn't he?
Why is it that we don't always want to listen until it is literally staring at you dead in the face...
I learn the hard way...for some reason I have always learned things the hard way. But today, there are a few things that have just suddenly become so crystal clear to me.
I am not normally so openly religious or spiritual. But right now I just have to say "thank you Lord". Thank you for showing me so clearly what I needed to see. I can honestly say right now without a doubt that I know what time it is...I know what I need to do.
And from this moment forward, I am going to be F-O-C-U-S-E-D on getting it done.

Tis all,